Hi, this is Kekipee. How are you guys doing these days? I have some exams this week and that means I don't have class at all this week. I still go to school a couple of times tho. But just because I don't have school, that doesn't necessarily mean that I'm less stressed out. I have lots of things to do but I don't really feel like doing anything at home. Yes, I procrastinate a lot. So I've been thinking of how I could make myself motivated for anything I should start.

One reason I'm like that is that I've been too busy and always exhausted. I usually wake up before 8 am, soon leave home for school and get back home around 11 pm. So it's almost like I'm here at home just to sleep and do nothing else. I like being busy but I don't really have time to relax. Maybe I'm making myself too busy.

But what's exactly relaxing is for me? I like sleeping but it's what I do almost every day and isn't what I think is special in any way... I had better maybe improve the quality of sleeping as well. After school I watch some funny videos on YouTube and that'd be the only relaxing time for me. But when I do it, I don't honestly feel relaxed. I feel guilty anytime I do something I shouldn't do at the time before something I should do like homework. So put it simply, I can't feel relaxed until I finish every homework. But it's almost impossible to completely finish homework coz it's literally endless and I get new tasks day by day. So I guess I need to make myself relaxed or non-guilty for anything consciously. For that, I need to plan on every little thing to do daily. But do you know the feeling when you completely plan on something but you fail it? I hate it.

Anyway, as I said, I don't have school this week so I try to think about my life. I mean, how I live an everyday life. I guess I'm just in a vicious circle for now. At least I wanna believe so. Dealing with a busy life would be a forever task for me but I hope I'd make it someday...